Father, your beauty is all I see this morning. I desire to desire you. I just want to want you because I know that all that you offer is more than any small pleasure here. In my selfish pursuits, I feel how lacking in satisfaction everything is. But just a taste of you…. Oh, and I just want more.
And it’s endless and soul-filling. It’s body-filling and heart-mending. My eyes are satisfied in you. My feet want to dance for you. In you I feel complete acceptance and love. No insecurity or worry or loss or fear.
Why do I look anywhere else? Abba, why do I stray from your arms to look for temporary, selfish, inadequate arms? When I KNOW with all of who I am that YOU are more than enough… so much more than enough.
And you forgive me. And you keep your arms open. And you chase me down when I stray too far. And you don’t hold it against me. When I’m without words, when my heart loves other things, when I turn away from your arms, when I ignore your Spirit in my soul, you still love me unchangingly.
How can any of this be true? How can I know it so well? How can I believe it with all my being? …and still wander… still sin… still tune out your voice.
I love you, my good Father… My gracious Savior. My Rescuer. My Everything.
I am never proven wrong to trust you. I am never let down by your grace and mercy.
And I know I can’t fabricate this love. I cannot even make myself come before you.
I can’t let go of myself to grab hold of You. I am powerless. Without breath or blood of my own. You draw me. You pull me. You stop me. You sing me awake from my self-induced sin-filled slumber.
I do nothing good on my own.
I don’t even seek to do good on my own.
It is all you, Lord. And I praise you and thank you for that. That I am under your protection. Your control. Your goodness sustains me alone. I am dirt until You. I am bones until You.
On this moment, I sit and praise you. Only in this one. This moment you have given me. You have brought me once again to your feet. That I am beckoned by the King is such an honor, unimaginably so.
I am blessed beyond measure. And I praise you with all that I am able.